two years is long enough

This weekend was the most fun I had in a long time. Saturday ended up with me partying with my cousins (you wouldn't believe how much fun we had). From homemade guacamole to lost earring backing and broken beer bottles to pooky being drunk (I swear it was philip who did it). It was such a blast; we had a barbecue by the pool and there was endless limes with margaritas. I was hassling eugene so bad; it hurts me to think of it. Philip wore my necklace, my locket. And I wore eugene's yellow shirt. I had the best talk with debs (and us trashing about bosses, and how much she hates hers). I slept over deb's and eunie's with john driving. I couldn't stay awake nomatter how hard I tried. Sunday we missed church, but we ate ramen instead and watched this really dumb movie. I got home and got ready for adeann's debut (we ended up being on time despite how late we were). Awkward conversations, sitting in between fish and kentin. We threw shells at each other and I swear they were going to try to eat the beta fish. Danny was there, and so was eddie and eileen. I didn't do my hair, but i should have brought a hairtie. Dancing all night long was so much fun, even if it was a bit awkward at first. And too many confessions for one night. I've had so many dreams, but I can't remember anything. In fact, I know there is so much I don't remember because everything was such a blur.

This week, I am going to accomplish alot on my summer to do list! I promise. But I'll specify exactly what I'm going to do:
venice beach with the gang (monday)
picnic at the getty (thursday)
get a new haircut?
make more felt dolls (when i'm free)
lemonaide from little kids
lunch with kg (next week)

chill with danny (tuesday)
make chocolate cream pie
send a message in a bottle

s'mores & stargazing (soon)

i wish we had an urbanoutfitters

Today was quite a busy day, and also, I am using older pictures since I cannot upload the ones I've taken recently. Today, I had astro obbins with lucy (she treated me because I won a bet we made). I took almost three hours to get ready. We didn't even eat inside br; instead, we went to a nearby parkbench and talked and ate. Then we raced in our cars (vroom vroom) to goodwill where I found a pair of boots that were really warm for when I go to boston and it snows. On the way there, I saw justin's car with his little weener antenna thing, so I called him and we met up at the mall. I drifted around with him and went shopping myself (some jewelry and a vest). I then bought a journal for my dreams and the interpretations of my dreams (my own interpretations with the assistance of other dream guides like freud though I still need to get his book). And on my way home, kristen called me and wanted to go for a coffee. I got to its a grind early and bought a 50/50 (orange juice and white chocolate... its alot more delicious than it sounds), but we ended up going to bj's with a couple of her friends to eat pzookies. All in all, I had a very eventful day though I did miss my gang (and I tried to hang out with them after, but my dad wanted me home... he still doesn't trust me I don't think). I really had fun today, and it was nice seeing all of my friends (all in one day!). Goodnight, I am going to read the amber spyglass tonight, but not too late because I have to get up early.

i grew up too fast, he grew up too slow

Last night, I stayed up until the wee hours of the morning. Daddy took me to work with him, I was famished. We visited my aunt, lines of worry and sadness were etched onto her face. They discussed matters in serious tones. Curious, but confused, I wandered about, finding the cutest pair of argyle socks. Wool coats and winter jackets on racks upon racks surrounded us at burlington coat factory where I found clothes for boston (and a cute pair of steve madden boots). Now I feel ready to face the cold autumn winds, but not yet the icy winter colds of new england. I brought friday some doggy treats; he was more than ecstatic (jumping up to lick my face). Colin was at concerts in the park, so packing a sandwich picnic, everyone headed over to central park. I forgot my book, so I began to draw. I haven't done any productive work in my moleskin for quite some time. We went to barnes & nobles after and I finally have Amelie & Marie Antoinette. Everyone has gone to bed early; only the mice in the attic keep me company. I keep thinking of how tonight was abts; I'm so sad I couldn't go. My heart is heavy with bitterness and regret (the sun is coming up for a new day).

I can't sleep, I can't speak.

fleamarkets & pour the drinks

yesterday: trip to the flea market without the flea market existing. ending up going to mountasia for fun with lauren's lost coin bag. battle royale and long bunnies. sitting on the sidewalk with foldout chairs and longboards rolling around. movies of jackie chan and jet li. songs that fill my memory and dreams.

today: lunch with dean, and icecream (phish food). walking around the mall, endless talks. looking for clothes, but ending up buying books. music in the car. sad phonecalls. kickback at twigs and bp. she came and wouldn't stop staring at me. all i wanted to do was melt away. he came. we talked alot more than ususal. i drove.

grab your bag and let's go

Hello, I have been sleeping all day; I feel lethargic, like everything is in slow motion. I'm trying hard not to regret, but its fairly hard when opportunities open up and

you have to say no (ugh I reallly want to go to EDC). I'm trying out my new black ihome :) and its nothing short of amazing. Feltbunny has been sitting on my desk, observing my collection of bracelets. I recently acquired two new bracelets: a braided leather cord and my pink bunny watch (shown above).

I'm waiting for a miracle happening.