"It's not your fault. Perhaps this was really the only thing I had ever wanted to say to anyone, and be told."

I'm reading bits and pieces of her stories. The first one was about an imaginary affair between two neighbors called "The Shared Patio" (the title is a quote from this story). It made me feel a bit better, reading it in the cool moonless night of my patio. I was talking to nic, and I began to realize I want someone that genuinely deeply cares about me. There are so many people surrounding me that I see having that; I've become a bit jealous because I just want that too. (Its so hard feeling alone). And when you mentioned what happened yesterday, lying on the blankets, how I looked lost when they talked, you made me feel like someone finally understands me. The best bit of advice from nic:

"Don't worry Claire. There has to be a reason why I'm where I'm at, and there's a reason why you are where you're at."