Sunday, March 29, 2009

I can't do this any more. I read your words over and over and over. Until the black letters fade into gray and I can only see the blur of what was. What if I can't do this? I asked. What if I'm not strong enough? Oh its breaking my heart how you're just so complacent with how things are. How perfect things are going for you. I'm almost bitter, but how could you stay angry for long at someone with such sweet sentiments and wide smiles? All of it is stripped away the moment you walk in. You're so entitled to what's best, and I'm more than willing to give it. Turning the tables has never been this hard (see who is the one playing games now?). I can't give in, but I can't give up. Not knowing what to do has never been this painful before.

1 comment:

christine s. said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_hV8L65Rqo

Weak and wounded sinner
Lost and left to die
O, raise your head, for love is passing by
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus and live!

Now your burden's lifted
And carried far away
And precious blood has washed away the stain, so
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus and live!

And like a newborn baby
Don't be afraid to crawl
And remember when you walk
Sometimes we fall...so
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus and live!

Sometimes the way is lonely
And steep and filled with pain
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain, then
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus and live!

O, and when the love spills over
And music fills the night
And when you can't contain your joy inside, then
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus and live!

And with your final heartbeat
Kiss the world goodbye
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side, and
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus and live!